CH-CH-CH-CHanges

I was recently reminded of this blog's existence (thanks, Matt) and about the therapeutic aspects of writing in any form. So, it is with that in mind, that I return, attempting to be as vulnerable as ever. Yep, even in a public forum.

It has been almost exactly four months since my last post. At that time, I found myself reveling in the beauty of Colorado and struggling to find balance with technology, relationship and nature. So much has changed in these past four months...and so much has stayed the same. The internal struggles of becoming a better person, following dreams and ambitions and the battle for maintaining a sense of self in a culture of chaos live on in my daily life. I imagine they always will. However, the day to day circumstances in which I contemplate these things have just changed dramatically.

My last blog entry was written in the place I will be calling home in a few short days. I was offered a position in Granby, Colorado, which I snatched up immediately. In true form, I actually accepted the job without having even heard what the salary would be. Talk about a leap of faith! (In actuality, I am just not traditionally a very detail-oriented person...even with the occasional BIG detail) This is by far one of, if not the greatest risk I've taken in my life. I have one friend in the small town I'll be residing in. She is incredible and life-giving, but I'm having to trust that a support system will fall into place quickly, before I become either a shut-in or one of those crazy mountain people ...you know the ones.

While I am beyond excited about my new adventure, I am more or less a giant spaghetti bowl of emotions. It is hard to think about leaving the life I have built for myself here in Omaha. I have made wonderful friends, been able to deepen my long-standing relationships and be a presence in both my immediate and extended family. While thinking about this can be overwhelming, I know it is an internal struggle I must have in order to become the better person I was created to be, to make a difference elsewhere. For as often as I claim to be an "adventurer," it is an important reminder that really, all serious daring starts from within.

So, with that...LOOK OUT GRANBY!